I can feel my heartbeat under the blankets

I wish it were quiet like the rest of me

I have to do things ‘one-mindfully’

Every day and that means staying

In the moment even though I want

To avoid all moments and all things

Sometimes I miss the hospital

Even if the hospital had bad food

My therapist says it was a vacation

But I don’t feel like it’s much vacation

When you’re in a hospital

It’s not much vacation

The last vacation I took

Was to New York City

My whole family and I

Drove there and back